Saturday, March 27, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Weekend almost over
so this weekend was pretty blah.. I took my hormone shot friday morning which led me to being ill and not wanting to do anything elese other than lay in bed curled up and wanting that nauseated feeling to go away.My friends called to go out I of course declined to go..same thing with saturday and satuday night.. stayed in bed sick..Waited for Richard to call ..now its sunday.. had plans to maybe meet up with him later tonight..but well see.Aside from the usual week long adventures dont hv much of anything planned.. although I am thinking of going to mililani this weekend to hang out with my girlys. Ohh talking about Mililani i recently ran into an old friend on of all places FaceBook..how kool huh. I havt seen or talked to him gosh since I was like 15 years old..lol.. he was a Total trouble maker.anyway it was nice to hear from him again.Gnna film a new video for my partnerd youtube channel and then wait out to see whats gnna be for tonight.. adios
Erika!!!
Erika!!!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
xoxoxox
had a pretty great week.. got to spend a few nights this week with my ex which was super nice.. made a few youtube vids for my partnerd channel.. made a couple of new friends..lost 3 pounds..lol.. so all in all it was a pretty great week... stay tuned for new videos ill be posting soon! hugsssssssss
Monday, February 22, 2010
Going to see the Ex..
Off to go see the ex bf in a few hours.. debating if i should go or not..o well... lets see where time takes me tonight.. hugsss
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Happy BDay to ME
So,
Yesterday was my birthday the 24, It started out not so good .I lost my puppy "wormy" .I woke up to find that she had passed away.. it made me super sad because she had her second visit with the vet for treatment today and I was praying and talking to her to be strong and to hang in there for another day .. I took her to the vet yesterday and while there i found out that she had the parvo virus.. its basically a virus animals catch by coming in contact with infected feces..So my day didn't start off to well. Mid day I worked out did my Pilates and ran a few Miles on my treadmill to take my mind off things and to focus my attention on something other than my late puppy..
I didn't really have anything planned for my bday..there was the option to hang with my girls but after a fun filled weekend with them i just sort of wanted to hv a quiet evening with my special someone.. and that's just what I got. = )
Later in the evening I went to meet up with my special guy and spent the rest of my birthday with him , talking, laughing and just being happy..I really miss it..u know ,the talks..the walks.. the stares,the hugs, the kisses, the innocent flirting ..just everything..so it was nice to have that be the ending to what was a rough day .Now its 556 am in the morning and I just hung up the phone after calling to let him know that I got home safely and just wished him goodnight and sweet dreams Now I'm here and I'm awake and prolly gonna be awake for a Lil while.. I don't want my night to end just yet.
So as far as today I'm not really sure what I have planned..I have to make a few phone calls and then my day is gonna be pretty open for anything basically..Mondays are usually pretty boring.. so I think I might just make more videos for my Partnered YouTube channel and update all my blogs with new content etc.. Maybe I might go to the beach I'm not sure.. sounds tempting..my dog looks like he needs a day out so maybe I might take him for a walk .who knows where the wind might take me today.
With a HUGE smile,
Erika
Yesterday was my birthday the 24, It started out not so good .I lost my puppy "wormy" .I woke up to find that she had passed away.. it made me super sad because she had her second visit with the vet for treatment today and I was praying and talking to her to be strong and to hang in there for another day .. I took her to the vet yesterday and while there i found out that she had the parvo virus.. its basically a virus animals catch by coming in contact with infected feces..So my day didn't start off to well. Mid day I worked out did my Pilates and ran a few Miles on my treadmill to take my mind off things and to focus my attention on something other than my late puppy..
I didn't really have anything planned for my bday..there was the option to hang with my girls but after a fun filled weekend with them i just sort of wanted to hv a quiet evening with my special someone.. and that's just what I got. = )
Later in the evening I went to meet up with my special guy and spent the rest of my birthday with him , talking, laughing and just being happy..I really miss it..u know ,the talks..the walks.. the stares,the hugs, the kisses, the innocent flirting ..just everything..so it was nice to have that be the ending to what was a rough day .Now its 556 am in the morning and I just hung up the phone after calling to let him know that I got home safely and just wished him goodnight and sweet dreams Now I'm here and I'm awake and prolly gonna be awake for a Lil while.. I don't want my night to end just yet.
So as far as today I'm not really sure what I have planned..I have to make a few phone calls and then my day is gonna be pretty open for anything basically..Mondays are usually pretty boring.. so I think I might just make more videos for my Partnered YouTube channel and update all my blogs with new content etc.. Maybe I might go to the beach I'm not sure.. sounds tempting..my dog looks like he needs a day out so maybe I might take him for a walk .who knows where the wind might take me today.
With a HUGE smile,
Erika
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Angry Puppy hates cameras
This is my 2 dogs the lil ones name is Xi..shes real snappy whenever I want to take a picture of her ..so as soon as she sees the camera she starts barking hystericly..lol.. too cute
Happy New Year
So, this year has started off a lil rocky for me.. i split from my boyfriend of 7 months on the 29 of December and well, i ran gin the New Years crying and sobbing myself to bed. So far this year has been So So.. i say that because im trying my hardest to get back with my now ex "BF"..it's hard because I know that me leaving is a huge reason why he's giving me such a hard time now .. We talk every now and then almost on a daily basis .. but nothing like it used to be .. I MISS HIM terribly.. I miss his smile in the morning hes kisses at night.. his hugs when im feeling sad and blue and his soft whispers of Im in love with you when ever i needed reassurance.As of now hes at a church camp miles and miles away from me.. and I'm here wide awake at 1:04am in the morning wide eyed and cant sleep... because all i think about is him.. from the moment Iwake in the morning till the time i lay my head to sleep at night.. constant memories of me and him are going through my mind at a 100 times per second.
Ive never really fallen for a guy this hard let alone feel this lost when we've decided to go our own ways.. its jus different with him .. with Richard it's a love story that never ends.. he makes me smile like ive never smiled ever.. he shows affection when its needed but its when its unexpected is when he shows affection most.. and i love that about him.. he's extremely generous with his heart and he also loves animals which is a plus if you ask me..soft spoken ..soft hearted. kind..sweet guy..What i miss the most are the moments where we would jus stare at eachother.. jus looking in eachothers eyes and feeling how much we cared for one another.. thats what i miss the most.. those silent moments where all you hear is the beating of eachothers hearts and the intense gentle stare from eachothers love struck stare..
I left because of personal reasons.. to which i dont wish to share here.. but lets jus say that when it was good it was great and when it was hard it was really bad... but like all relationships is how you come out of those hardtimes that really teach you about who you are as a person and then who you are as a partner.. and i lost track of the 2 and decided to leave ..when i should have stayed and tried to make it work.. Its hard to say if I regret it.. I do know that in the moment that i left.. I thought i was doing the best thing i could at the time for myself.. However as later on time will teach me.. it wasnt the best thing for us as a couple.. I was hurt and in a bad emotional state of mind when i left and that as usual is when i make my worst decisions . Theres alot of healing to go through on both ends and im not sure if he will ever take me back after leaving him.
Its been almost 3 weeks since the breakup and all though we still talk and jus today he told me that hes still in love with me. Who knows what the future holds for us too.. all I know is that I know for sure that hes the guy im supposed to be with.. hes the guy im supposed to marry and hes the guy i know for sure that i was meant to spend the rest of my life with.. so ill be patient and take eachday by its self and let good life be... in closing i jus want to say that when you feel it in your heart that its meant to be .. dont let it slip away from you..embrace it and do everything you can to make it work...
Erika <3
Ive never really fallen for a guy this hard let alone feel this lost when we've decided to go our own ways.. its jus different with him .. with Richard it's a love story that never ends.. he makes me smile like ive never smiled ever.. he shows affection when its needed but its when its unexpected is when he shows affection most.. and i love that about him.. he's extremely generous with his heart and he also loves animals which is a plus if you ask me..soft spoken ..soft hearted. kind..sweet guy..What i miss the most are the moments where we would jus stare at eachother.. jus looking in eachothers eyes and feeling how much we cared for one another.. thats what i miss the most.. those silent moments where all you hear is the beating of eachothers hearts and the intense gentle stare from eachothers love struck stare..
I left because of personal reasons.. to which i dont wish to share here.. but lets jus say that when it was good it was great and when it was hard it was really bad... but like all relationships is how you come out of those hardtimes that really teach you about who you are as a person and then who you are as a partner.. and i lost track of the 2 and decided to leave ..when i should have stayed and tried to make it work.. Its hard to say if I regret it.. I do know that in the moment that i left.. I thought i was doing the best thing i could at the time for myself.. However as later on time will teach me.. it wasnt the best thing for us as a couple.. I was hurt and in a bad emotional state of mind when i left and that as usual is when i make my worst decisions . Theres alot of healing to go through on both ends and im not sure if he will ever take me back after leaving him.
Its been almost 3 weeks since the breakup and all though we still talk and jus today he told me that hes still in love with me. Who knows what the future holds for us too.. all I know is that I know for sure that hes the guy im supposed to be with.. hes the guy im supposed to marry and hes the guy i know for sure that i was meant to spend the rest of my life with.. so ill be patient and take eachday by its self and let good life be... in closing i jus want to say that when you feel it in your heart that its meant to be .. dont let it slip away from you..embrace it and do everything you can to make it work...
Erika <3
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